I’m writing in extreme frustration right now. I always ask myself, time and time again why I have such a difficult time getting down to the things that are important for me to do. It seems to me that I have no difficulty spending loads of time procrastinating with television, internet, or facebook. But when it comes to school work I’m so hesitant and I work so hard to put off studying and doing work!

This is utterly frustrating too, because I’ve been trying to work towards becoming the kind of person that isn’t last minute. Unless I feel the pressing need of urgency I don’t usually get down to work.

For instance, I want to go to the library to study. Would like to, but I’m just unwilling to unless I get a ride. I guess any excuse not to work seems to be a good enough reason for me.

I’ve been sick with the flu (not swine flu) for the past 2 weeks, and I feel that the illness has taken a toll on my willingness to do things. I stopped going to the gym, which is reasonable because I think its important to take time off strenuous activities to recover from a respiratory illness. I had to cancel various appointments, I put off studying to take bed rest. But as I’m recovering I’m finding it hard to get back into the things that kept me busy and productive.

*breathes* Okay. I will attempt to try and work for at least 15 minutes, and then continue onwards. I’ll definitely blog about my progress later.